shiz. *emo-ish return*a) for going on a year-long (+ some) hiatus
b) for breaking promises - commissions, gaia art shop, etc.
c) for forgetting how to draw
d) for relearning how to draw but being too damn lazy to relearn how to color
e) for being ugly
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Yeah, so.
I don't really know if I'm going to start on RL commissions again.
I don't even know if I'm even going to draw anymore for any kind of payment, be it virtual or paper money.
Looking at all my artist-friends/idols, I start to feel incredibly INFERIOR... everyone has had, what, like 1 or 2 more years of improvement behind them? While I'm stuck here... barely able to do lineart or to color...
Heck, I've been looking at my OWN old artwork lately, and even THAT makes me feel inferior... I don't think I can do any of that anymore. D: All my new sketches are of a completely different style...
People that once seemed to look up to me have now surpassed me...
People that I used to look up to have now become famous or well-known or ultra-popular or whatever...
gaw.
I think this deserves an FML.
So... FML.
I'm going to college next year, so I definitely won't be able to keep up with drawing.
I'll just make the most of my summer break, I suppose.
Maybe do a few Gaia commissions...
Maybe keep up with my dA...
Maybe even do one or two RL commissions...
No promises though, because I feel horrible whenever I break them. D:
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Yay Myuu~
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"My name is Fiona Alexander and I'm a snotty British rich-person. Out of my way pheasent!"
I've broken promises for many art trades or sales both online and off, and I guess the only godsend is that people online aren't hurt by my inactivity. I too have improved very little, and envy my middle school years when crappy as my art was, I was still drawing feverishly each and every day.
I'm also thinking of RL commissions too though, for all the irony of it, simply because I'm also going to college this year. And damn, I need the money.
I just want to say that you're not alone, and maybe we can help each other out since I honestly don't know many people who are going through what I am. Plus, it's so great to see that people we met randomly years ago can be much dearer than we first though. Good luck.
~Swii (use this nickname to find my Facebook, if you have one.)
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She Who Is Ignorant. <3
I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one going through this, lol. It would be great to catch up with you, though I totally failed at finding you on Facebook, hahaha...
I don't really know how to reply to you, so I apologize if my response makes no sense LOL. D:
After reading your response, I realized I shouldn't be sitting around and doing nothing, so I decided to draw something with every effort I had towards improving (and it's up in my gallery right now) - so I thank you for your encouraging words. ^^
I know I won't have as much time to draw during college next year, so I suppose I'll just make the most of what I can for the rest of this summer. RL commissions do sound nice though... I'm sure if we both prod each other to stay on task, we can do it! LOL
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Sorry! I have a terrible memory. D:
I saw your latest deviation and it looks like you've been improving too! I've been practicing as well, but recently my computer broke down. I still have my laptop of course, but it was my main computer that had Photoshop and the last of the files that I was planning on transferring to my laptop. Gah. Anyway, so I'm sticking with pencil for a while. xD;;
Since it's coming down to it, RL commissions might be a bit too late for me, but maybe the next summer? Either way, since I'm not going to art school, I need to devote my summers to art instead.
Where are you going to college? Which city? It'd be cool if we were miraculously both at the East coast...I'm going to be in Baltimore.
Anyway, good luck with art and college! I was just amazed at the time, reading your journal, that we were in the same place in life. So yeah, let's work towards our goals together. <3
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She Who Is Ignorant. <3
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